car·riage re·turn

n. the lever or mechanism on a typewriter that would cause the cylinder on which the paper was held (the carriage) to return to the left margin of the page


Sunshine,blue sky,please go away

Let it rain
I need rain to disguise the tears in my eyes

Yeah,You know I’m a man,I ain’t got no pride,
Til it rains,I’m gonna stay inside,
Let it rain,Let it rain
Oh yeah,yeah,yeah,yeah…
Oh how I wish that it would rain…

-The Temptations “I Wish It Would Rain”

This weekend saw the first rainfall in the area that I can remember since early spring. I’ve been unhappy with the weather for some time now,especially knowing that friends and family back in the Midwest have been enjoying the glories of autumn. Now that the yearly shift from the dry to rainy season is slowly approaching I’m starting to feel a bit better.

I was talking with some friends this weekend about Seasonal Affective Disorder. Growing up in the Midwest I’d always assumed that SAD was something that happened to people who struggled to deal with the decreased amount of sunlight during the winter months. I had friends in my high school class who fought the effects of SAD every year,starting almost regularly with the shift to longer nights in October and bottoming out in December and January,right in time for the holidays.

My favorite seasons have traditionally been autumn and winter. I thrive in the cool (and cold) air,relishing the revitalizing sharpness in the air. I always would feel low around the holidays myself,but I knew it wasn’t SAD that made me feel that way,and unlike my friends who seemed to emerge from some inner refuge at the end of the winter,I always felt a bit of a downturn in my spirits when the snow melted off and the buds on the trees began to bloom.

Living in California has given me an insight to their annual torment. I’ve never been so excited to see rain as I was Friday evening,at least not so in recent memory. Overexposure to the sun apparently isn’t my cup of tea. With overcast days a luxury in Southern California during the summer months,I realized with the recent precipitation how much I’ve missed actual weather. Of course we have hotter days,or windier days,at times,but there aren’t the noticeable differences in climate that are one of the great joys of living in the Midwest.

I wouldn’t characterize my battle against the bland weather of Southern California as a personal fight with seasonal depression. After spending an entire summer in the Iraqi desert I know I can handle the harshest,most diametrically opposed environment possible given my disposition. But at the same time,I can’t help but wonder if my frame of mind hasn’t been in some way altered all summer long because of my thirst for something other than day after day of glaring sunshine.

In 16 days this will be a moot point. I will be leaving Southern California for good and returning to a Midwest already in the last throes of autumn,the sunlight will fade,and perhaps I’ll have some rain on my parade. What a pleasant welcome home that would be.

4 comments to Sunshine,blue sky,please go away

  • I only smile in the dark
    My only comfort is the night gone black
    I didn’t accidentally tell you that
    Im only happy when it rains

    -Garbage “’m Only Happy When It Rains”

    I can’t wait for Colorado’s first weather,or to have you pass through,as I’m sure you can’t either. It’s been good man…. I guess I should be thankful you don’t know how to program yet because then you’d be able to pick up and move and we might forget. ;-)

    See you soon.

  • Wyl

    I’m looking forward to passing through on that road home. Jo hasn’t met you yet,and I’ll be very happy to make the introduction.

    You said in a reply to my WDN article about DesFirEx that you hoped we would be able to have an annual get-together. I heartily agree.

    Speaking of programing,the Hemingway I’m looking at is way more complicated than anything else. It’s a mine field.

  • Alison- MOH –Wow! Robbie and Lauren,you’ve done it again! These images are as pecefrt as the day itself. I’m so grateful our worlds collided and that both Amanda and I had the ultimate photog duo shoot our weddings. Ladies and gentlemen,let these images stand as a testament to the reason you should ONLY hire professional,experienced photographers to capture one of the most memorable days of your life.

  • Wonderful photos! It is aywals difficult for me to see the beauty of a garden when it gets frosty and cold but you have shown through your photos how beautiful it can be. Thank you.

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